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Michelle Williams Reveals She Was Suicidal During Destiny's Child Fame

US Weekly logo US Weekly 18/10/2017 Nicholas Hautman

Michelle Williams holding a sign: Michelle Williams Destiny's Child suicidal © Jerod Harris/Getty Images Michelle Williams Destiny's Child suicidal Nearly two decades later, former Destiny's Child member Michelle Williams has revealed that she battled depression at the height of the girl group's fame.

"I didn't know until I was in my 30s what was going on," the singer, 37, said while guest cohosting The Talk on Wednesday, October 18. "I just thought it was growing pains. I just thought, 'I'm turning into a woman.' I've been suffering since the ages of between 13 and 15. At that age, I didn't know what to call it."

Beyoncé's father, Mathew Knowles, who was the group's manager, initially didn't understand Williams' feelings either. "I'm in one of the top-selling female groups of all time, suffering with depression," she recalled. "When I disclosed it to our manager at the time, bless his heart, he was like, 'Y'all just signed a multi-million dollar deal and you're about to go on tour. What do you have to be depressed about?' So I was like, 'Oh, maybe I'm just tired.'"

a woman talking on a cell phone: Michelle Williams Destiny's Child suicidal © Frank Micelotta/Getty Images Michelle Williams Destiny's Child suicidal

At one point, the Grammy nominee's depression was so bad that she became suicidal. "I was to that place where it got so dark and heavy because sometimes you feel like, 'I'm the provider, I take care of people. I'm not supposed to be feeling this way. What do I do?' And I wanted out," she recounted.

These days, Williams is feeling better. "It's off. It's released. I've released it," she said before applauding fellow singer Demi Lovato for being open about her own mental health. "Depression doesn't mean lazy. Self-harm doesn't mean you want attention. It's not any of that."

Williams, Beyoncé and Kelly Rowland reunited during Queen Bey's performance at the Super Bowl halftime show in February 2013 and later collaborated on Williams' 2014 single "Say Yes."

Readers seeking support and information about suicide prevention can contact Lifeline's 24-hour telephone counselling service on 0800 543 354 -Depression Helpline (8am to 12 midnight) - 0800 111 757 -Suicide Crisis Helpline (aimed at those in distress, or those who are concerned about the wellbeing of someone else) - 0508 828 865 (0508 TAUTOKO) -Youthline - 0800 376 633, free text 234 or email Where to get help relating to suicide and mental health:

o Need to talk? 1737 – free call or text any time to talk to a trained counsellor
o Lifeline – 0800 543 354
o Depression Helpline - 0800 111 757
o Suicide Crisis Helpline – 0508 828 865 (0508 TAUTOKO)
o Healthline – 0800 611 116
o Samaritans – 0800 726 666

If it is an emergency and you feel like you or someone else is at risk, call 111. Support for victims of sexual violence: NZ Police Victim Support 0800 842 846 Rape Crisis 0800 88 33 00 Rape Prevention Education HELP (Auckland): 09 623 170

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