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Jessica Cunningham gives birth to beautiful 'rainbow baby' with emotional post about her miscarriage

Irish Mirror logoIrish Mirror 05/07/2018 Emmeline Saunders
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Apprentice star Jessica Cunningham has given birth to her fourth child - and shared the happy news with an emotional post.

She revealed she'd welcomed her 'rainbow baby' after the loss of her last pregnancy last year, which came two months after the devastating suicide of her ex-partner Alistair Eccles, the father of her three eldest daughters.

"Iv not been on here for a good few days, and Iv had a good few messages asking if I have had the baby and the answer is....NO. #justjokes ," she captioned an Instagram post of her hand holding her newborn's tiny fist. 

Jessica, 31, also wore a rainbow ring on her middle finger to represent her lost child.

a close up of a persons hand © Provided by Trinity Mirror Shared Services Limited "We have in fact welcomed our beautiful little rainbow baby into the world and it’s as if they were always meant to be here.

"Before every rainbow there is always a storm and our storm over the past year has left us with THE most beautiful little view.

"We are all doing well, but for now, I probably won’t be on here for a few days as I am going to take a little bit of time to just enjoy my wonderful little family and also social media is a job in itself, and I am already quite sleep deprived, so any spare minutes are spent snoozing..."

She added: "Wish me luck on being a mama of 4."

Jessica has found happiness with new partner Alex Daw and launched her own blog to document her feelings after Alastair took his own life last autumn.

a little girl posing for a picture © Provided by Trinity Mirror Shared Services Limited But shortly after she and Alex found out they were expecting their first child together, Jessica noticed a worrying symptom.

"A couple of weeks after finding out we were having a baby, I started with brown spotting. I instantly started to panic, then instantly started to GOOGLE THE S**T OUT OF THE INTERNET," she wrote in late November on her blog.

"I found out that this could be 'Implantation or Breakthrough bleeding', 'perfectly normal' or 'the start of a miscarriage'....

"In the middle of all the sadness, we had been feeling as a family for the past couple of months, the universe (so I believed) had sent us the most precious gift. A baby..."

a group of people posing for the camera © Provided by Trinity Mirror Shared Services Limited She went on: "We started to get excited, choosing names, guessing what we would be having, downloading the 'baby centre' app to see what food the baby is the size of and starting to see some form of light at the end of the tunnel."

Jessica was devastated when she miscarried for three days, then took a pregnancy test that told her she was no longer pregnant.

"Just like that, it was gone. That was the most painful part of it, only three days earlier it read pregnant and now it was gone," she wrote.

"I felt like my body was broken as well as my mind. I questioned why, why did this have to happen, what is the Universe trying to tell me. What lesson does the universe want me to take from this?

"What was the purpose of this pregnancy, surely there had to be one? I felt humiliated telling my friends that I had miscarried as only a few days before I had told them I was pregnant. I wondered if it was something that I did, or if I could have prevented it."

a woman smiling for the camera © Provided by Trinity Mirror Shared Services Limited She added: "I then started to realise sometimes there are no answers. Sometimes things just happen that are beyond our control and things that we can not change. The only control we have is how we choose to act and react to whatever life throws at us. When I realised this, all of a sudden I felt different. I felt for the first time in months that I had a clear mind.

"I let myself feel sad, but not for long, because there were so many more reasons to smile. I smiled for my children, my relationship, our health, the roof over our heads, my family, friends and just being here.

"S**t things happen in life, tragedy, death and things we will never know the answers too. But time is a healer and time needs its time," she added.

What is a rainbow baby?

A 'rainbow baby' is the term given to the birth of a child after the parents have experienced a loss, either through miscarriage, stillbirth or neonatal death.

It represents the peace after the storm - and parents who use the term say it helps them feel hopeful again after painful times.

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